📓 The Beginning of Becoming

The Leap

In June of 2023, I took a leap.

I signed up for the Inner Engineering course with Sadhguru — a spiritual teacher I’d watched from a distance for years. It was the last time he was personally initiating people into Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya, and something in me knew… this was it.

Funny thing is, I didn’t take it seriously. I was on the fence.

I was told I need therapy.

I had always been in pursuit of personal growth in some form, but therapy? That wasn’t something I believed men did. Especially not Mexican men. I had an image to maintain, a reputation, a persona.

But life humbled me.

Three daughters will do that to a man.

They softened me more than I ever imagined possible.

And I’m not saying I didn’t have the ability to hurt people — I did. But over time, I learned how to be soft.

I had to show my girls that their dad loved them — that home was their safe place.

Because I know what it’s like when home isn’t.

Atlanta Changed Everything

I booked my flight to Atlanta.

Sadhguru was going to be there in person to initiate us.

It was a 40-day commitment — a week of prep work before I even arrived: ten hours of videos, a deep dive into yogic science, followed by three full days of instruction — yoga, meditation, pranayama.

Then the real work began.

Forty days of practice. Twice a day.

No food, no snack, no drink four and a half hours before each session. One in the morning, one in the evening. Non-negotiable.

And then the weird shit started happening.

All that third eye, pineal gland, “manifest your reality” stuff? I used to roll my eyes at that.

Now? I was living it.

I had moments during meditation that were otherworldly. Both of my ex-fathers-in-law — who had passed — came to me. My little dog, who had just died, came to comfort me. I felt her snout press into me like she was saying, “I’m still here.”

And something clicked.

I wasn’t just experiencing life — I was creating it.

I always had been. I just didn’t realize it.

I’ve always had a strong will. I’m a visionary. I see what I want, and before I know it — there it is. Real. Tangible. It just happens.

That level of focus started to shift everything — including the space between me and my wife.

The Space That Grew

I signed up for more advanced training with Isha, Sadhguru’s foundation. Three weeks of Angamardana and Shoonya.

Angamardana is a full-body yogic process — 21 poses to strengthen the body. I didn’t care about the Sanskrit; I just wanted to age well.

I told myself: If I can tie my shoes and wipe my own ass at 90, I’m winning.

But it became something more.

The poses activated something — energy, awareness, geometry. Like the planets, the body creates geometry that mirrors the universe.

And when that alignment happens… shit happens.

Then came Shoonya — an advanced meditation practice.

After that, I took off.

I Became the Observer

The sequence of Angamardana → Shoonya → Shambhavi became my daily flow.

And I started slipping into places I didn’t know existed.

I could separate from my thoughts. From my body.

I became the observer of my life.

I wasn’t reacting to the world anymore. I was watching it.

And I was watching myself move through it.

That’s when it hit me — society is just running on autopilot.

Most of what we do, we don’t even think about. We just repeat.

Even now, my body wakes me up at 4:30 a.m.

Gratitude. Breath. Stillness.

I meditate before I even get out of bed — well, after I pee.

Then I continue the rest of my ritual. By 8 or 9 a.m., I’m ready to meet the world.

And it looks nothing like it used to.

I stay off social media.

I’ve turned inward.

And I’m working — really working — on this Becoming.

This Is the Start

This is the short story of my beginning.

You’re going to learn a lot about me if you stick around.

I’ve lived — still living — an amazing life.

But this… this right here is different.

I don’t know where I’m going with it.

I just know it’s going to be fucken huge.

I’ll be posting videos from all over the world.

Not to show off. Not to flex.

Just to document what I now consider normal.

Because my normal is wild.

And it’s real.

This isn’t Instagram. This isn’t curated.

This is me — Becoming. Every day.

And I’m here to prove something simple:

I’m not better than you.

I’m not wiser, stronger, faster, or more worthy.

I’m just doing the work.

The same work you’re probably afraid to start.

But that voice in your gut knows it’s time.

So yeah — it’s time, motherfucker.

Time to shit or get off the pot.

Because the greatest investment I’ve ever made was in one person:

Me.

🌅 Reflection Prompt

What’s the one leap you’ve been postponing — the one your gut keeps whispering about?

What would happen if you stopped analyzing and just jumped?